woensdag 31 maart 2010

this was last sunday, at the busstation
my boyfriend and i have got to travel 2 and an half hour
to see eachother
so i only see him in the weekends
while we were waiting for the bus, we made some silly pictures
with my mobile phone.
oh, and i dyed my hair again, so for those who wanted to know
how my hair looks when i just dyed it, tadaaah!
my sister and i had a beauty night hahah xd
it was fun (:
i love my 'little' sis
(who is a lot longer than i am!)
i think i look like a spooky freak, and my sis like a cumcumber-pirate
or something. xd

donderdag 25 maart 2010

i was looking trough all my pictures, as always when i cant sleep
my dog hahaha xd
last year while i was in recovery
hannelotte and me, quite some time ago,
my hair was even my natural haircolour haha

i looove this picture of my boyfriend hahaha
he wasn't really prepared for the picture,
but that makes it even more loveable
last year, my boyfriend and i in portugal. it was amazing xd
another picture from the first time we met!
i feel happy when i look at those pictures.
i dont know why i take so many pictures,
i guess to make sure i will never forget anything of those things,
good, or bad.

woensdag 24 maart 2010

ive just been to the hairdresser
and i am saaad cause i think they screwed it up
it's too short
it's not horrible, but i just didnt wanted it to be this short
glad my hair grows fast.

maandag 22 maart 2010


on http://www.freshcotton.com/ they have now a styling contest
a guy from freshcotton asked me to upload 3 pictures as example for the contest
and if i would, i would get a 50 euro giftcard, to spend on freshcotton.com!
so now im sort of on freshcotton.com hahah :p

zondag 21 maart 2010

Lay your head upon my pillow.
Hold your warm and tender body close to mine.
Hear the whisper of the raindrops, Blowin' soft against the window,
And make believe you love me one more time,
For the good times.
johnny cash - for the good times.

vrijdag 19 maart 2010

second of august 2009
this is the first picture of me and my boyfriend
also the first time i ever saw him.
we met eachother on the internet, on habbo.nl hahaha xd
that was almost 2/3 years ago
and now, we're together for more than 7 months
when we didnt knew eachother in the reallife yet, he used to send me letters
with pokemon cards.
when we first met, he gave me a pokemon card, and asked me to be his girlfriend
and since that day we're together
and i think we might stay together for a long time

donderdag 18 maart 2010

i cant sleep

woensdag 17 maart 2010

last week, it was my grandma's 75th birthday!
so we went bowling hahah xd
i can't bowl at all, but it was fun.
i always love the silly shoes you have to wear in a bowling centrum
so i went to the manager (well.. manager.. i think it might just have been some guy who worked there.
but manager sounds cooler) and asked if i could buy them
but they didnt wanted to sell them, so ill have to try it somewhere else :p
someday, ill get silly bowling shoes!


dear people who read my blog.
a little time ago i found out my pictures has been used as thinspiration pictures
wich made me sad, and made me write this.
for a long time i have not dare to response on your comments about my weight,
but now i will. cause i dont want people to think my body is healthy,
or normal and average for a girl of my age and lenght.
i find it hard to admit, and this is sort off my 'come out' for the outside world
but i do have an eating disorder.
and in early april i will go to a clinic again to recover.
i actually have two options.
one is, stay this way, never be able to work
to have fun, to live my actual life, always make my parents and boyfriend unhappy
and be nothing more than a girl in a picture.
the second one is, gain weight, and be able to live a real life.
i could do so much more if i were healthy,
i could go everywhere i wanted with my boyfriend
it's not the easiest, but i chose the second option.
ive chosen long enough for the first one.
for those who looked on my blog for thinspiration pictures;
you can stop following, cause soon i will look healthy.
i hope you will choose the second opinion too some day.

donderdag 11 maart 2010

i wanna kiss him like this right noww
i want him to hug me like this nowww

i wanna be on his back like this right noww..

and i wanna see his face lik this right now

but he's not here bluhh

woensdag 10 maart 2010


any questions about my hair?
i will reply (only) here!
really like my zara skirt.
found out how to make pictures from above on my bed
cant stop taking them, light is always great?
my room is on the second floor
and the sun shines almost all day long right into my room
(wich means my room is almost always warmmmmm<3>

zondag 7 maart 2010

this is us
us today
us tomorrow
us yesterday
us forever, i hope

were so gangstah =p

i miiiiiiiiiiis my boyfriend allreadyyyy

its sunday, and my boyfriend is still in my bed, sleeping.
its finally less winter-weather
finally sunlight xd
yesterday my boyfriend and i went to the city to go shopping
cause tomorrow, were going to a prom
(is that the right word?)
but im really not into black dresses, so i bought a black skirt
ill make pictures of it someday

donderdag 4 maart 2010

im soo in love with my Zara top!

Zara is great anyway, i love their spring collection

i wish i could spend so much more money hahah xd
two years ago, in france
was amazing, wish i could go back
oh and this is my real haircolour =p

woensdag 3 maart 2010

september 09
last summer

dinsdag 2 maart 2010

oktober 09

no photoshop, im really happy with the colours.
oktober 09

i think, most of the time, holding hands is enough.
oktober 09